Get Radical Woman's Award 2011

I've been a fan of a page on facebook for a little over a year now called Get Radical Women's Conference. I saw the message on their fan page about nominations for the 2011 awards. I decided to nominate myself. Nominations are open to women in Canada as well as the USA. And self nominations are allowed as well. Find below my nomination essay that I just finished writing and submitting to the organization committee.


Yes I work a "9 - 5" job for Metis Calgary Family Services as a Community Animator for Aboriginal Parent Link. However, this is not my true passion in life.

That is why I started the company Awakening Goddess. I have figured out my purpose in life. It is to inspire women to be fully who they are and accept their own wisdom, beauty, grace and power!

I grew up like many girls having many self confidence issues, body issues, and self esteem issues. I was severely bullied by both the boys and girls in my grade school years from grades four to eight. And I am a survivor of an abusive relationship while in University

I as well like many women have dealt with my weight through out my adult life. However it was about 3 years ago when I hit my top clothing size 16/18. I didn't like myself, the way I looked or anything.

I came across the TV show The Biggest Loser and fell in love with the show. I cried along with the participants each week, and could relate to a lot of what they were saying. The trainers on the show were amazing, I love them both, although I am a fellow “Team Jillian” fan.

I decided it was time for me. I’m choosing to eat healthier, and live a more healthier life style. I’m not done my journey but I have so far gone from the size 16/18 to a size 11 (currently while writing this).

While choosing to live healthier, I also took that to look after my mental, emotional, and spiritual bodies as well. I’ve been doing personal growth seminars re learning who I really am, reclaiming my self power and worth. And learning to dream big.

I also stumbled upon an amazing fitness dance class called Burlesquercise. It’s called “sexy fitness” by my dance instructress. Sexify your soul my dance instructress says. To get into my body and move it, learning how to be sensual in my dancing has not been easy. I grew up classically ballet trained for 11 years. So when I first started my dance classes my instructress was showing us what to do, how to move and then touching our own bodies in a sensual way was very hard for me to do.

Now though I love it! Realizing that my purpose is to inspire women to be fully who they are and accept their own wisdom, beauty, grace, and power through sacred body movement brings me such joy! I love seeing the women come to the one on one’s that I do, or mini lessons for a group of girl friends with the uncertainty of what is going to happen, to watch them bloom open to have fun and enjoy moving their bodies.

That’s why I feel I deserve the Radical Woman’s Award for 2011, it’s important I feel for women to be comfortable in their own skin, to fully be who they are and accept their own wisdom, beauty, grace, and power! Thank you for considering me!

Heart's Desires

A while ago this quote came into my e-mail box: "Understand your purpose in life by feeling your heart's desires." ~ Marcia Wieder

This quote really spoke to me. As I sit here this morning in a local coffee shop I look around and wonder how many others in the shop really know what their purpose in life is?

What in life makes their heart sing? What gets them jazzed about life?

What gets you jazzed about life? What makes your heart sing?

Why do you get up in the morning? What keeps you going?

My coach has a wonderful message on her facebook page: "You have the power to transform your own life. Get clear on your purpose - then open your heart and let it come to you."

I love this message too! It was she who helped me figure out my purpose. I open my heart and let go of the "how" things will happen. I will create magic! I am a powerful creator. Yes I have to take steps to create the magic, and so do you!

I know I've written about this before, but I'll keep doing it! I love inspiring other women, I love watching them step into their power. Through many outlets, but one for sure is through sacred body movement. It is something I could do I love it, it's a job I could do for free. It's my passion/purpose to inspire women to be fully who they are and accept their own wisdom, beauty, grace and power.

Another thing I've done to step into my own power, is that I've booked my photo shoot with Impressive Photography. I will be doing a boudoir photo shoot with them, as well as a shoot that's more on the professional side of things. I've never done a boudoir photo shoot before.

Growing up with lots of body self image issues I had a huge struggle with seeing myself as beautiful. As well as lots of self confidence issues, it was a struggle growing up sometimes. I thought of myself especially in high school as the "fat sister". My younger sister I thought at that time was prettier because she was smaller than I was.

But now, I've come to accept my body the way it is, and love it as it is now. Yes I am still on a journey to live healthier and eat healthier, but it will always be there. I've journeyed from being a size 16/18 to now a size 11! I am proud of what I've done.

I give thanks to my teachers along my journey. Di from Burlesquercise for it is you who helped me bring out my inner sex kitten! And learn the body movements that I now use to inspire my own clients. The entire Sr. Staff team at WarriorSage for helping me figure out who I am, develop my personal power, and shine my true heart.

Doing the work on myself, taking time for me has been important. I wish for you to take time for yourself, and see what your heart really desires to do.

Blessings!

I lovingly present to you!

Okay! Crazy wonderful week! I had my first student earlier in the week. And was on cloud nine...but I have even more wonderful news to share with you all!

The next day I launched my web site for Awakening Goddess, and ordered my very first business cards! I'm super excited! I've gotten some wonderful feed back already from some friends.

I invite you to www.awakeninggoddess.com

Thank you everyone for your love and support! If you feel moved, I invite your comments on the guest book and to spread the message of Awakening Goddess!

It's my dream to inspire all women to be fully who they are and accept their own wisdom, beauty, grace, and power!

It's Official!!

Wow!!! Wow!!! Wow!!! Thank you Universe for making me wealthy! I am proud to announce that Awakening Goddess officially had it's first solo client/student!

I am on cloud nine! I met a beautiful Goddess for an hour. We opened with a heart connection dyad we each asked each other three questions "Tell me a thought in your mind? Tell me a feeling in your body? and Tell me a feeling in your heart?" Then I asked her why was I there? What did she want to get out of the session.

We did some stretching, and then body isolation movements. We took our time and she did amazing. Then we moved into some zoning. Again, we played with the zones and took our time. I showed her one of the performances that I had done at the Sun and Salsa festival back in July "Take Control". She thought it was really great.

To close the evening we did the same dyad, the three questions, her responses were very different to what she had said earlier at the start of the evening.

We only did one hour of a session. We are going to meet again next week! I am super excited!

It's inspiring for me to see the change in even one hour with the Goddess I was working with. I love to inspire others! Hence my purpose of Awakening Goddess! To inspire women to be fully who they are and accept their own wisdom, beauty, grace and power!

It's what I do that I love! I saw a quote that my parents sent me from Hawaii, it is "let what you do, be what you love!" And I love dancing and inspiring others! It brings me such joy! Even I go so far to say outrageous joy! It is my purpose/gift of love/passion for the world! And I'm not going to stop!

Find below three pictures, two of me from the May Burlesque Gala, and one of me and my amazing teacher the sexy Di Lefebvre! Who I owe so much too! So much love and gratitude to you Miss Di!

I am booking my photo shoot very soon, within the next couple of weeks I hope!

Flow of the Feminine

So over these past two weeks, I've had lots going on. Last weekend (Aug. 13 - 15) I attended the amazing Groovy Goddess Weekend, at a fellow Goddess Sister's house. We had lots of fun, connecting, replenishing our feminine hearts, and enjoying being in each others company.

It was so peaceful to just be able to go with the flow and do what I felt like doing. If I wanted to rest I did, if I wanted to swim, I did, if I wanted to dance I did. There was no agenda at all for the entire weekend. The only things that were set was who was preparing the meals and what we were preparing. The group I was with, was on breakfast for Saturday. We prepared pancakes, bacon, and fruit. It was wonderful. We all took care of each other and ourselves all at the same time.

We didn't have any set official practices, but many women had things come up and worked them through in arms of their Sisters. It was beautiful and magical to witness and support my Sisters, and to be supported by them when I had things come up during the weekend. I feel honoured and blessed to be apart of the weekend.

I know that the power of the feminine is amazing, healing, magical, and life force its self. Mother Goddess can turn your world upside down in 2 seconds flat. Never underestimate the power of the feminine. Both Mother Goddess and yourself! You are a powerful, magical Goddess! You can flow down the peaceful river, but also create waves of great power!

It's a thrilling experience to feel the excitement of energy buzzing through my veins when I get really creative, or a great idea comes up. For example, I've booked my first client for Awakening Goddess. I will be inspiring one Goddess to be fully who she is and accept her own wisdom, beauty, grace, and power!

Find below a mini movie I found on you-tube about what is a Goddess?

Memories from childhood that bring you to smile!

Sitting here in a local coffee shop this morning it is raining. When I was coming into the coffee shop it hadn't started to rain yet. Although I knew it had, by the puddles on the ground, but more importantly there was an aroma in the air that I could tell it had rained during the over night.

The aroma that was in the air took me back to my childhood. I was a flood of memories from when I was in Girl Guides and camping. It was the same aroma that I would smell after it had just rained. I thought about being a girl again, being out in nature camping. Soaking up all that was around me. It was a happy time, to be in nature. I was reminded of being surrounded by trees, the water, and the beauty of Mother Nature.

There are other memories that I have that are only brought on by specific aroma's. For example when I am visiting my family back home in Ontario, sometimes Mum will make porridge on the stove. The aroma of the oats cooking on the stove remind me from when I was little, and she would do the same thing.

Or perhaps it's a memory from something you see? When I see little girls playing/exploring out in a park, in nature, it reminds me when I was a little girl, being out in nature in a forest with my father. We would go and collect fire wood for our wood burning stove that we had. I would spend more time exploring the tree's looking for places where fairy's live or woodland creatures like squirls or chipmunks. I would help my Dad yes, but I was more concerned about finding houses for the animals and fairy's.

Another happy memory that is sprung from seeing others is again when I see little girls dancing/twirling in space. I am reminded of when I took ballet lessons as a young girl. I had so much fun dancing wearing the pretty costumes that had all the sparkles.

And now I am dancing still, but instead of sparkles and sequins, I have feathers! It is such a rewarding experience to be dancing again. I have women come up to me after they see me dance, and ask how do I do it? There are many women who see me dance who want to dance like myself and the others in my dance troop but are either to afraid to do so, or don't think they can dance. Goddesses! Let me tell you a little secret....if you can walk, you can dance! Just move your body to the music, feel the music in your heart, and let your body move to it!

Open to LOVE

Okay, I'm back.....and I am open to LOVE are you? I was at an event called Awakening of the WarriorSage. It is an event all about personal power and breaking through fears to live the way you want too. Be it open to love, freedom, power, all of the above!

I had the true honour and pleasure to be apart of a team of amazing Warriors for three days. I served them well and the amazing participants as well. It was my role to set the scene for the participants each day. To ready them for their task at hand it was a serious task, that would take them to their death and back. We were playing with dark energy, energy that can be very scary for some. I know when I participated in this event back in 2007, the last thing I wanted to do was be in that dark energy for 5 hours! I cried the entire time.

Many participants broke through amazing barriers or fears that they had. The Warriors that I served were amazing with the participants. Seeing into each participant seeing what buttons to push to get them to break out of their fear and into love! It was beautiful to be apart of to witness the transformations.

Who will you fight for? Who will you die for? Who will you live for? Who will you protect when you are faced with your dark demons? Who will suffer if you are not here on this planet?

Where in your life are you not open to love? Can you be open to love, even in the darkest times? I know for myself when I've gone through some crazy dark times in my life, the last thing I want to do is open to love. But then I stop and breathe, even if I can just open just a little 2% more then I've accomplished something.

I want to encourage you Sister, to open to love, even just a tiny bit more, just 2% more. Come on out of your shell a bit. See the world from the eyes of love!

Find below a picture of the Warriors and myself from our Gala night from the seminar. These fine men are amazing. I trust them with my life. And for me that is saying something!