Resolutions Bah! Humbug!!

Tonight is yet another magical night of the Holiday season.  It is New Year's Eve.  For the past few days friends of mine have been posting about setting New Year's Eve resolutions.  And to that I say Bah!  Humbug!

Yes you read that right!  How many people actually set New Years resolutions and stick to them?  The percentage of it is quite low.  Rather than setting resolutions, I like to make New Years intentions!

Tonight instead of going out to celebrate with friends, I chose to stay in.  I had a lovely day, spent it in my p.j.'s and surfing the net/facebook, and watching some TV and a movie.  At about 10:30pm I turned off most of the lights in my apartment, and lit the candles.  I even lit them in the bathroom.  I decided to do a ritual for the New Year for my intentions.  I had an amazing hot shower by candle light.  Just washed me with lavender body wash.  I also while in the shower dunked myself  seven times.  It is said that to cleanse your spirit/soul to dunk in water seven times.  This washes away all negative energy and brings your soul back to having a clean slate.  It was interesting as on the 30th I also went to the spa and did a body scrub treatment.  It was lovely, it was like scrubbing away all  the dead skin and energy from 2010 so I can enter 2011 with baby soft skin, and a clear energy.

After  the shower, I applied lotion to my skin, I took my time and really pressed the lotion into me, like pressing love into my skin. 

Coming into my living room, I have 4 coloured tea light holders, one green, one yellow, one red, and one blue.  One by one I lit those candles speaking words of welcome to each of the four directions and Goddesses.  Green for the North Earth Goddesses (Artimes), yellow for the East Air Goddesses (Rhinanna), red for the South Fire Goddesses (Pele), and blue for the West Water Goddesses (Oya).  I also have a purple candle in the middle for the Great Mother Goddess (Gaia).  I set my intentions for the New Year.  I thanked the Goddesses for their elemental power.

Finally I rose from kneeling at my candles and danced to the music I had playing, no words in the music, just lots of different sounds/music.  I felt the power rise up in me I felt the energy rise from within.  I grounded my intentions into my dance.  It was nothing special the dance, just moving my body they way it felt like in the moment, to moment, to moment.  Sacred body movement I like to call it.

With the last 15min of 2010 as I sit here, I am grateful for all the abundance in my life.  I thank you those who support Awakening Goddess.  I feel all the love and support from others.  And I thank you.  May the New Year be the best that you can make it.  For everyone is wealthy, abundant, loved, and amazing! 

Thank you and see you all in 2011!!

In the Mirror

A day or two ago, I was getting ready for a Christmas/Birthday party at a friends house.  I had just finished doing my make-up and took a step back and looked at myself in the mirror.  I thought to myself that I looked pretty hot all done up.  And then I said it out loud to myself.  I look hot!  It was an interesting experience.  I've never done that before.

How often do you do that?  Look in the mirror and tell yourself that you look amazing, or beautiful, or HOT!? 

It's apart of the self love, self care that I know I have to consciously practice.  To put the "editor" or "itty bitty shitty committee" away, and give it another job.  Women around the world struggle with this issue, letting their inner editor/saboteur control how they feel.  Well I say NO MORE!!!  Women, we are beautiful, no matter our age, skin type or what we look like in the mirror.  Our lights are radiant, we should let our light shine.  Who cares what that inner editor or itty bitty shitty committee says to us. 

I came across a song not too long ago by Katy Perry called "Firework".  The words in that song are pretty amazing!  In her song, she sings about letting the light shine from with in, and letting the firework inside you come out, and show others what you can do, and own the night.  That the energy of a firework has always been inside you, and it's time to let it out, to let the colours burst, and shoot across the sky like a firework!  Find the video below of the song.



This song speaks to me right now, not being afraid to shine my light, to explode my firework inside me. Doing what I love, I have a quote that says:  "Let what you do, be what you love!"  I love being an inspiration to others.  Especially women, inspiring them to be fully who they are.  Even ad mist all the curve balls that life may throw at us.  It just means we are growing.  I invite you to my website, I've made a few small changes over the past few weeks.  If you haven't been there in a while.  http://www.awakeninggoddess.com/

Let us all let our firework out and let the colours burst across the sky!  What a wonderful sight that would be!

Thank you for laying me off!



An interesting thought came into my mind just a minute ago, and I found it quite interesting.  Maybe an idea for a book??  The thought is:  Thank you for laying me off!  Above you will see myself in two different pictures, the top one I'm with the amazing Jodi, and the second one I'm with the amazing Bonnie, they are from Green Learning Academy.

In April of 2008, I was working at the amazing school of Green Learning Academy  a private school that prides itself on teaching your child how to think, not what to think.

I worked there for the first 3/4 of the school year,  then due to budget reasons the school had to either lay off 3 of their aide's for the class rooms or shut the doors to the school.  And of course the school chose to lay off three of us.  It was a sad day for all involved.

I cried, yelled (later in my car) and was very sad.  I loved working for the school, my co-workers and supervisors were all amazing.

However as time passed, I've come to the realization that being laid off from Green Learning Academy was the best thing that could have happened for me. 

I've worked at a couple of different jobs, with two different agencies.  One was strictly a before/after school care.  And then for the past year and a half, I've been with Metis Calgary Family Services.  For the first year I was apart of the day care staff, and then in July of this year, I became apart of the Aboriginal Parent Link team.  This switch has been wonderful.  I now help families who are in need of provisions such as diapers, formula for their babies. 

I've also had amazing opportunities within work to attend some great seminars, workshops, and have had valuable time with a few of the Elders in the community.  I am also the representative for our organization at the Calgary Fetal Alcohol Network.  It's been great connecting with other agencies who work with families/individuals who are affected by fetal alcohol spectrum disorders.

Away from work "life" I've continued to dance, and am apart of the Sizzle Girls performing our show pieces at different events.  I continue to grow and expand my dance experience every day.

This past summer I took a huge leap and officially started my own business Awakening Goddess!  Women appear to be interested in the business and I've had a great growing opportunities and networking opportunities with in it.  Such as being apart of the Women Embracing Brilliance event, being on a blog talk Internet radio show, and doing mini sessions of Awakening Goddess for friends.

I thank everyone for the support and thank you to the Green Learning Academy for laying me off!  It's been a great gift in my life!

Let it in!

So yet again I've not written in a few weeks, life has been keeping me very busy.  And with the holiday season upon us, things are going to become even more busier!

About a week ago, I was feeling really low and reached out for help from others.  As well as others reached out to me.  One beautiful Goddess called me one night and we had a great talk.  She called me out on some stuff that I do and maybe don't see or recognize that I am doing it.  We also talked about some things that I have been working on to keep growing and peeling away the layers of the lotus flower to be even more fully awakened. 

For example, one of them is a combination of asking for help in all areas of my life and also letting others help me.  Letting it in.  I am a pretty independent girl, I live on my own, take care of things myself.  I see myself as a strong woman, and I find it difficult to ask for help from others.  It to me feels vulnerable and weak to ask for help. 

This theme has come up a few times in the month of November.  I was at a friends house in BC and we were talking about this exact issue and she held me too it.  Meaning, that when even as something as simple as asking my friend to pass me my drink because I couldn't reach it.

My friend on the phone earlier this week and I talked about letting the help in as well.  She's inviting me/challenging me to drop my shell and let others help me.  As well to go along with this is to let the love of others in, my friends/family do love me, I just need to let their love in.  To remember that it's not weak asking for help.  It takes courage to ask for help.

Another thing we talked about was letting others get close to me.  This one I've been working on for a long time.  I can remember even in high school around 15yrs old doing something for swimming and learning a spinal precaution for a swimmer who has a neck injury.  You have to get your body/face really close to the swimmer who needs help.  I can remember my instructor saying to me "Aime, get closer to them."  So this has been an on going shell with me.  My friend on the phone suggested that perhaps it's coming from a past life of mine. 

Last night I was at a social dance learning an East Coast swing dance.  I became aware/noticed that I was struggling to let the guys into my bubble to dance, to dance you need to let the guy be close to you.  I just breathed and was aware of it.

So I want to encourage everyone to not be afraid to ask for help, and then to let the help in from others.  I know it's something I continue to work on.