An afternoon by the river

So the other day on the weekend I spent a good portion of my time outside of the city sitting by the river out towards Canmore. Find below all my ramblings. Included in it are tarot/oracle readings and a poem that I wrote. Enjoy! When was the last time you spent 5hrs sitting alone in silence (for the most part) on Mother Earth??

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I've come back to the same spot off the #1A Highway. It is very windy this afternoon. The ancestors must be busy or are glad that I am back. I'm at peace sitting out here on Mother Earth. I see all the swallows dive close to the river and it reminds me of being at Camp Adelaide my "home" Girl Guide Camp back in Ontario. It was always calming/peaceful to watch them swoop along the lake before all the kids would come in the morning.

There is one swallow that keeps on calling to me, she's along the shore line right now and pecking at the water. (As I sit here now blogging this post, I looked up the meaning of the swallow bird, it means coming home)

My intention is to stay out here over night. I did bring my sleeping bag and food. So we shall see. I have some oracle cards and stones with me as well.

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Goddess Oracle Cards = I shuffled the deck and four fell out. I read it as the four body systems. Find below my readings

Spiritual Body = Maya (illusion)
Mental Body = Rhiannon (doubt)
Emotional Body = Morgan Le Fay (rhythms)
Physical Body = Nu Kua (order)

Goddess Amulets (stones) = Temple (Breakthrough, Awakening, Healing) I found this stone very interesting. I loved the reading from it. It talked about healing myself my physical health, to take time to get back to nature go for massages, go inward, to go into my body, to not do anything crazy physical activity/workout. I feel very drawn to the amulet right now. As I sit here and write this blog. It's like going through the doorway to being me, to living my dreams.

The Wisdom of Avalon Oracle Cards = 36 = Sacred Journey Markers = Movement = Change for the better.

Osho Zen Tarot = Queen of Clouds = Morality

1800hrs

I went in the river. She was cold. I went in eventually up to my mid calves's. Glad I brought my Teva's. Had them on in the river.

I asked Mother Gaea to cleanse me, to take all the sickness away. I could feel the current against my legs. I could feel her against my skin. Her cool water healing me.

I did the yoga pose called "The Goddess" while in the water. I spoke aloud the 21st Century Goddess Mantra. I kept my eyes open when I did this. I actually struggled to do so. Felling like I was vulnerable in staying in that position. But I stayed with it. Find below a poem I wrote:

Yemaya I surrender to you.
Yemaya I surrender to your flow.
I let the waters heal me.
Yemaya wash away my pain.

Yemaya Mother ocean I come to you.
I enter your watery womb
with compassion and seeking renewal.
Yemaya I surrender to you.

Yemaya Mother ocean you are powerful.
Yemaya Mother Ocean you created your Sister Gaea.
Both of you have created me.

Yemaya I surrender to you.
Yemaya I surrender to your flow.
I let your waters heal me,
and birth me anew.

2015hrs

Still here sitting on Mother Goddess Earth. I feel very connected to spirit as the sun has been traveling across the sky today. However the thunder clouds are gathering in the West. I feel it's time for me to journey back to the city very soon. As well as another couple has found me out and I'm no longer alone. He is fishing, and she I'm guessing will be assisting him.

I have really enjoyed my afternoon/evening out here. I must do this again soon. Maybe there's another magic spot along the highway that I can sit on Mother Earth again by the river too.

Reconnecting to Spirit and the Great Mother

Tonight I decided to go for a walk, well the walk ended up as a drive. I found myself driving out one of the highways west towards the mountains. I pulled over along the highway, I sat by the river and did some practices of reflection and meditation. Find below my reflections:

I'm out in the sanctuary of the Mother goddess. Mother Earth herself. I've found a spot off the highway. It's right on the Bow River. I sit surrounded by the wild grass and the rocks at the bank of the river. Across the river are pine tree's. I can hear the songs of Mother Goddess. The birds and the lapping water on the rocks. Near by there is also a little stream and a little waterfall.

Looking across the river at the stand of trees I can begin to see faces in the trees. I have come "home" to part of my body, my spirit body. I feel I can rest here. The faces in the trees are friendly. They stand tall and straight. Reminding me that I am able to stand tall but also move with the way the wind wants me to bend.

The flow of the water reminds me of exactly that. To let myself flow with the energies of Mother Earth. To trust that She will guide me on the right path. And she'll let me know when I'm not.

Oh Great Mother I see you
Oh Great Mother I feel you
Hold me gently with your arms so wide
Guide me through, I'll be at your side.
I'll listen, to your wisdom.
Oh Great Mother I see you
Oh Great Mother I feel you.

To come back to nature and sit in the arms of the Great Mother is something I'll keep doing. To sit in the silence and listen to her voice, to spirit. I know my path of inspiring women to be fully who they are and accept their own wisdom, beauty and grace will also heal me.

My ego has been quiet this entire time. The "itty bitty shitty committee" has not come up at all while sitting on the Great Mother by the river. I feel at peace, calm, relaxed and connected to all my dreams. Seeing them come into reality.

I am love, I am a divine Goddess who moves like the ocean with all her emotions.

"I am feminine.
I am sensual.
I am sexual.
I am powerful.
Don't ever mistake my kindness for weakness, and don't EVER take me for granted!" ~ Sierra Bender

On the way home, I saw the beautiful moon arising for the night, full and beautiful. It was a wonderful experience to see her rise above me as I came back to the city.