Don't Die With Your Song Still Inside You

How often do you listen to the little voice with in your head?  Now there is a difference, sometimes the voice is negative and harmful to you.  I like to call it my Itty Bitty S#%&y Committee.  The negative talk that sometimes can be very loud.  What I've been learning from a beautiful friend of mine is to ask this negative self talker inside my head to trust me. 

Trust is a big word for me, it came up a week ago when working with my massage therapist/reiki master.  She was down at my feet and said to me the word "trust".  A bunch of emotions came up.  Trusting others to help me, trusting myself, and trusting the Universe.  All those three areas I'm still working on.  I'm not perfect, I'm me, which is perfect in my heart.  I know I got stuff to work on, we all do!



Tonight I was watching the movie via you-tube of "The Shift" it has Wayne Dyrer in it as the main character.  It's a pretty neat movie.  Lots of great messages in it.  The one that stuck with me this time is "Don't die with your song still inside you."  Now, that's a different voice, it's the voice in your heart.  I took it as what is your heart song?  We all have one in us.  Maybe it's painting, speaking, gardening, dancing.  Take a moment and listen in silence to your heart.  What is it really trying to tell you?

Mine is dance, and being of service to others.  As I wrote about it in my short story, being told by my Mum that I don't look like a dancer any more to stop dancing broke my heart.  I completely stopped dancing.  To the point when in high school at dances friends had to show me how to dance.  I slowly started to dance again.  Till now in this present time I dance at least once a day.  Even around in my living room to a piece of music.

This past week, I've also had wonderful opportunities to meet with friends for tea and have amazing conversations.  Making brilliant connections with others, creating and dreaming big with them.  One friend and I are planning a women's weekend in the mountains in a couple of months.  Working on the mind, body, and spirit of being a woman, in all aspects.  Both the spiritual side and sensual side.  It was so much fun to create with her, and then come home and create two different "play lists" on my I-Pod to use for the weekend.

Another friend has asked me to assist her with volunteer things for an event/workshop she is having in the fall.  It's going to be so much fun working with her!

I am listening to the song in my heart and acting on them.  Will you stop Sister and listen?

I leave you with this beautiful mini movie from you-tube all about dancing.  I love the quotes in this.  Enjoy!

RANGO's teachings

On Friday night, I took myself out for a movie date.  I went and saw the movie RANGO, a kids movie with Johny Depp as the main character/voice.  It had a great story with an even better message.

The message is:  Don't Walk Out Of Your Own STORY!  You are the creator of your own story.  If you walk out of it, then what will happen?  And who you are in your story is important as well.  You Sister are the Heroine!  You are the creator!  You are POWERFUL!!!

I know for me in my life there has been a couple of times where I wanted to walk out of my own story even with out knowing it fully.  I can remember something my Dad told me about when I was first born, the nurses at the NICU had to remind me to keep breathing.  I would stop breathing because my lungs weren't fully developed.  But there was something in me that was stronger.  The doctors told my parents that I would always be small and petite.  Hah!  Were they wrong!  That's like saying that your daughter will not amount to much, and not live her life.  And the doctors thought that about me, I was baptized and not expected to live past 24hrs.

As I grew into adulthood life threw me different curve balls where I could have easily walked away from creating my story.  Being in the hospital 7 years ago with having to under go emergency surgery to remove a cyst the size of a large grapefruit was a very low time in my life.  At one point I thought of walking out of my story (going into a shell/depression and not fully living).  With love and support from family and friends I didn't.  I learned how to ask for help during my recovery.

Now seven years later, it almost feels like a re birthing of sorts for me.  I've had many shifts take place since January.  I've been taking amazing steps to keep going forward in life.  To live my life.  I am creating my own story as the heroine, the creator, the one who says what is so.  It's a thrilling experience, meaning it's scary good! 

I don't really care what others think of me either, I have some critics/negative people who've told me it can't be done.  Or others have said stop you are shining too bright, it's too much.  I know what I am doing on this earth is a good thing, it's needed in the world.  Many women that I've come in contact with and all over the world are not living their Awakened Goddess selves. 

Women connecting with their Awakened Goddess selves, connecting with heart with other women.  Getting into their bodies and moving them in sacred body movement.  It's a healing experience to move our bodies, even if it's a slight bounce/sway to a good piece of music that you love!  I know I've been dancing to some music and all of a sudden the tears will just start to flow, it's a healing it's a release for me.  Showing up moment to moment.

Find below a piece of music with amazing words that I love, it's by Natasha Bedingfield called "Unwritten", about how your life is not written yet, you have the control to do so!





So remember, don't walk out of your own story!  You are the heroine in your own story.  It has yet to be created!!!

Are you Awake?

Have you met the Goddess Pele??  She's an amazing Fire Goddess from Hawaii.  She came to me today in my oracle deck.  I didn't even pick a card, I just opened the companion book and there she was staring up at me with her arms stretched over her head with a bursting volcano behind her.  The picture above is the same picture I have in my Goddess Oracle.

As the picture says "Pele, Awakening", are you awakened?  Are you living your passion?  When was the first time you felt awakened?

My first experience of feeling awakened was when I was attending a course on relationships.  I dealt with a lot of inner crap, and started removing the layers or masks to reveal the true me.  I started to be able to trust men again.

Years went by and I was able to grow my inner light, and step out into who I am, knowing who I am . Finally last year really listening to my heart and accepting my passion/purpose for the world. I feel awake when living my purpose.  I can feel the glow inside of me just growing bigger and bigger.

I find it interesting as well I just had an "ah ha" moment....the name of my business is Awakening Goddess.  Pele is the Goddess of Awakening!  I feel that is why she came to me tonight, to remind me of my purpose.  To keep awakening other women to all that they can be.  As well as to remind myself!  To keep living as an awakened Goddess.  To keep that fire within me moving, and flowing.  I am an awakened Goddess!

In closing of this post tonight, I wish to share two things fiest, the poem that comes with the Pele Goddess Oracle card from my book.  The Goddess Oracle, A. Marashinsky, pg. 138, 139.

Pele

AWAKENING

I surge I pulse I throb
I am never still
I am perpetual vibration
a rhythmic beat
the constant hum that you hear
I am always moving
way down in the deeps
with fiery vitality
in places you can only feel
When necessary
with dramatic, fierce, volcanic eruptions
I wake you up
With lava and fire
I say "pay attention"

Also a video movie I found on you-tube.  It's a chant and art work for the Goddess Pele.  In the video are words that are also describing Pele.  Another area she represents according to the author of the video is she is the Goddess of the Dance!  Awesome!  I didn't know she was the Goddess of Dance as well!  Let your Goddess out!  It's time to dance and live life!

putting self out there

Yesterday afternoon, I had a wonderful phone chat with a beautiful Goddess Sister.  We talked about many things, I wanted to share this one topic more.  We talked about putting self out there, really letting our lights shine and be seen.

We both agree that it's scary to really put ourselves out there.  To speak my truth, I've been put down so many times for shining my light, or putting myself out there.  Every time though, I dust myself off and get back up.  Yes I may get up slowly and lean on others for support, but do it.  I eventually stand on my own.  I don't need fixing, I'm not broken.

Here's a quote from a brilliant Goddess who I am so honoured to know.  "A brilliant woman knows she will have raving fans and may also have harsh critics. Remember, if people spread negative gossip about you it means they are only afraid of your light. :) Keep shining!"

As it says, for the amazing number of raving fans one may have, she may also have harsh critics as well.  It's those critics that are actually afraid of you.  This is a good thing to remember.  The critics may be really good friends perhaps.  It's good to keep in a circle of friends who believe in you and support your dreams/goals.  Yes they may give you a dose of reality from time to time, but they do it from a place of love.  I've come into a new circle of amazing, brilliant, and loving Goddesses.  They do just what I said above, support your dreams/goals, believe in you, and also give a dose of reality from a place of love.

It makes me think, growing up I was severely bullied from grades 4 till 8 on a daily basis.  For many reasons, take your pick, for being in Girl Guides, for still using my imagination and dreaming, for the way I look, that I did ballet, the list could go on and on!  Maybe, just maybe all those in grade school who teased me did it because they were afraid of my light even then.  We didn't know the words to describe it in grade 4, perhaps though that was what they were really thinking. 

Yes I danced ballet for 11 years!  And was a member of Girl Guides up until about 10 years ago actually.  It was fun to "make-believe" then, and it is now.  When was the last time you played with play-dough or a pretend cooking set??  I did today!  I am remembering to let myself dream big. 

So I'll continue to put myself out there, yes there may be critics that will put me down, or tell me to dim my light.  However, I bow to them with love say thank you and keep going. 

How will you today put yourself out there??


Find below a couple of pictures of me when I was younger (much younger!)



My Sister (the shorter one) and I at Camp Adelaide, the Girl Guide Camp we went to every summer!




My best friend growing up!  I'm on the left!  We met in ballet class when we were 3 and are still friends today!



Men write books, Women get out there and do it!

So I had another "ah ha" moment a couple of hours ago.  And wanted to blog about it!  My amazing coach posted our  group pictures from our Burlesque Cabaret Christmas Gala today and I came to an interesting realization.

It seems that a lot of the time, when women get brilliant ideas about sharing their gifts for the world they go out and do it, share it with the world.  Men on the other hand, will most of the time get their amazing brilliant ideas and then sit down and write a book about it!

For the past 4 years now (with the new year just starting) I've been dancing with Burlesquercise.  First starting out in Level One and taking steps up the ladder to be now with the Level Three performance group called "The Sizzle Girls".  When I share with others that I do the Burlesque dancing and perform it out in public, I get many different responses from both women and men.  Mostly the comments are very positive.   The women share with me that they would never have the courage to get out there and do the performances in public.  Some women even share with me that they don't even have the courage to be in the group classes.

It takes a lot of courage to do what we do in the performance troops.  To dance the way we do in front of a crowd, many times there are only one or two people in the audience that I may know.  It's powerful to dance in front of others.  To inspire women that they can be sexy no matter what they look like, that they can dance in a sultry way.

The performance troops are out there doing it, not sitting back and writing a book about it!  We are spreading sexiness in a professional way. 

That is also what I am doing with Awakening Goddess, I am yes writing a blog, but also being out in the community doing it.  Sharing my gift of love/my passion/ my purpose out into the world. 

I invite you Sister, to have your amazing brilliant ideas, and then get out there and do  them! 

Find below a slide show video I made of the amazing coyote's from the Sizzle Girls troop that I dance with.  The slide show has the music of what we danced to that night, a cut/arranged version of Speak No Americano. 

Resolutions Bah! Humbug!!

Tonight is yet another magical night of the Holiday season.  It is New Year's Eve.  For the past few days friends of mine have been posting about setting New Year's Eve resolutions.  And to that I say Bah!  Humbug!

Yes you read that right!  How many people actually set New Years resolutions and stick to them?  The percentage of it is quite low.  Rather than setting resolutions, I like to make New Years intentions!

Tonight instead of going out to celebrate with friends, I chose to stay in.  I had a lovely day, spent it in my p.j.'s and surfing the net/facebook, and watching some TV and a movie.  At about 10:30pm I turned off most of the lights in my apartment, and lit the candles.  I even lit them in the bathroom.  I decided to do a ritual for the New Year for my intentions.  I had an amazing hot shower by candle light.  Just washed me with lavender body wash.  I also while in the shower dunked myself  seven times.  It is said that to cleanse your spirit/soul to dunk in water seven times.  This washes away all negative energy and brings your soul back to having a clean slate.  It was interesting as on the 30th I also went to the spa and did a body scrub treatment.  It was lovely, it was like scrubbing away all  the dead skin and energy from 2010 so I can enter 2011 with baby soft skin, and a clear energy.

After  the shower, I applied lotion to my skin, I took my time and really pressed the lotion into me, like pressing love into my skin. 

Coming into my living room, I have 4 coloured tea light holders, one green, one yellow, one red, and one blue.  One by one I lit those candles speaking words of welcome to each of the four directions and Goddesses.  Green for the North Earth Goddesses (Artimes), yellow for the East Air Goddesses (Rhinanna), red for the South Fire Goddesses (Pele), and blue for the West Water Goddesses (Oya).  I also have a purple candle in the middle for the Great Mother Goddess (Gaia).  I set my intentions for the New Year.  I thanked the Goddesses for their elemental power.

Finally I rose from kneeling at my candles and danced to the music I had playing, no words in the music, just lots of different sounds/music.  I felt the power rise up in me I felt the energy rise from within.  I grounded my intentions into my dance.  It was nothing special the dance, just moving my body they way it felt like in the moment, to moment, to moment.  Sacred body movement I like to call it.

With the last 15min of 2010 as I sit here, I am grateful for all the abundance in my life.  I thank you those who support Awakening Goddess.  I feel all the love and support from others.  And I thank you.  May the New Year be the best that you can make it.  For everyone is wealthy, abundant, loved, and amazing! 

Thank you and see you all in 2011!!

deep feminine practice

Okay, so I've not written in a long while, but life keeps turning and turning.....and I am learning and practicing to surrender.  Much has happened since I last wrote.

I attended a Groovy Goddess Sleep Over Weekend at the start of Nov.  What an interesting weekend that was.  Letting myself be held and physically loved by my Goddess Sisters was a very healing experience for me.  Cried my eyes out that weekend, but it was a cleansing cry that took place.

Also attended Get It On this past weekend, a course offered by the Get A Life Organization.  Again I was practicing surrendering to the feminine and masculine.  As a single/available woman I was asked to make a list of the qualities that I'm looking for in my man that I am attracting into my life.  That part was easy.  Then we were asked to make a list of the reciprocal of that of wish we want to attract.  So a few things that I put on my list were I want my man to have strength, (and I don't just mean physical strength, but also emotional, and mental as well), have direction, have purpose.  So what do I have to do/be in order to attract that into my life?  I came up with surrender and trust!  The two other women that I was working with in creating our lists also suggested that I need to ask for help and receive it as well.

Very interesting......I ask for help at work when I don't understand something.  But I don't very often ask for help when not at work.  It takes a lot of courage for me to do so.  I expressed that to a few others a couple of days ago.   A Goddess who was listening on the phone call said that I can call her.  It was wonderful to hear that from her. 

Another thing we spoke about on the phone was what we as Goddesses can do to drop into our feminine more.  We agreed to get up and dance for about 10min each morning, to music that doesn't have words.  It'll be a good practice to get into my body each morning and move it.

Tonight I came home from work, and had a hot wonderful shower by candle light, I also lit many other candles around my living room, have been listening to calming music tonight as I sit and get creative!  I also indulged in some chocolate mint tea, and some chocolates made by Lindt!  Very tasty!!

So Sister, I invite and encourage you to do something to bring out your feminine each day.  Be gentle with yourself if you don't.  Just take it one step at a time!

Interview Radio Show

Hello everyone!  Today I accomplished something amazing!  I was interviewed by Bright Biz Hub here in Calgary on blog talk radio.  Here is the link to listen to the radio show in it's entirity.  It was such a beautiful thrilling experience!

Listen to internet radio with Bright Biz Hub on Blog Talk Radio

Social Dance Trust

Last night I went out to a social dance.  I try to go when ever they are hosted at the studio where I have my practices for Burlesque.  It's such a fun place, the owners treat everyone like family.  I invite you to visit the website of DancEnergy.  Great atmosphere, everyone is so friendly!

Since it was my birthday on Wednesday at the dance last night we celebrated my birthday too!  Before the day of the dance I requested a song to be placed on the dance list called Amie, it is sung by Lone Star and the original version is by Pure Prarie League.  Growing up my Dad would sing this song to me, and we would dance together, normally me standing on his feet! 

Gerald the owner of DancEnergy was able to find the song and said we could dance to it.  Little did I know what he really meant!  Just before the song played, the music stopped last night, and Dale the other owner of DancEnergy was on the microphone, asking for me to come to the dance floor, and everyone else leave.  I stood there breathing everyone in and sending love out.  Gerald came over and we started dancing with everyone watching!  It was a two step, and not my forte!  Then out of the corner of my eye I saw another man step onto the dance floor, he took over from Gerald and started to lead me around the dance floor, still with everyone watching!  This happened about 6 times!  Being led around the dance floor by these 6 men was a thrilling experience!

I had to totally let go and surrender to what was happening and just let myself flow.  I also had to trust the masculine 100%.  To trust that he'll lead me in the right direction, not let me bump into anyone or anything, and direct me in the dance.  I kept breathing and let myself flow with the music.  A couple of the guys I danced with I had either just met, or did not know them at all.  And that took going too, to dance with a man who I know only very little or not at all was a pretty big step for me.  Trusting the masculine is something I have to relax and practice lots with.  I have to let him be in control, and take his guidance.

Where in your life do you have to relax and trust??

I CAN!

So I've had a couple of really busy weeks.  Been really up and down emotionally too.  Last week I got to see and have all the pictures taken at my boudoir photo shoot with Impressive Photography.  I saw the pictures and didn't recognize myself in a bunch of  them.  It didn't look like me at all!

Find below at the end of this blog a picture or two of my favourites!  I have many favourites!  Enjoy!

I am blown away by the responses I've been getting on facebook of the photo's.  I feel very blessed!!

I also had the wonderful pleasure last night attending a beautiful event called Women Embracing Brilliance!  Wow!  What an experience it was!!  I was in the company of some amazing brilliant women!  Even one of my child hood hero's!  Growing up in our family we would watch the Olympics, both summer and winter, to the point where that was all that was on the TV.  I remember watching the 1988 summer Olympics.  We watched the synchronized swimming portion, I saw the duo Canadian team do their routine.  I remember thinking I wanted to meet those athletes!   I was so moved by their gold medal performance, that I wrote a story about competing in the Olympics as a syncro swimmer and winning gold.  And I finally got to meet one of them last night!  I kept thinking I know this woman, then I heard who she was and what sport she used to compete in, and it all clicked!  I knew her from watching her on TV those many many years ago!  It was so amazing to finally meet her!  She is an amazing brilliant woman!

Going into the event last night, I did not know what to expect.  I knew it would be a group of women in one room, but what was going to happen I had no clue.  And that was a risk for me, to step into the event not knowing really anyone that was going, or so I thought.  I knew of a couple yes but when I got there, I knew more than I thought!  It was wonderful.  Hearing 3 stories from the heart from 3 amazing women was so uplifting.

I connected with many women, traded business cards for Awakening Goddess, did a 1 minute promo video for Awakening Goddess and was on cloud nine for most of the night!  One Goddess that I connected with I've known for a few years now.  She told me something that I thank her profusely for.  She looked into my eyes and my heart and said that I am a writer, to keep on writing/blogging.  I connected back with her and was amazed at what she had just told me.

I couldn't believe it, me a writer?  Are you serious?  Growing up I was diagnosed with border line learning disabilities, low level of grammar, spelling and comprehension.  Was told things like I'll never spell well at all, and writing would always be difficult for me.

So NO!  I'm shedding that mask that was put on me growing up.  Even during my adult life, I was "ordered" by an old employer to take a grammar course to become better at writing for my reports.  They said my writing wasn't were it needed to be.  It was humiliating, I thought I was communicating quite well in my reports that I had to write.  They weren't huge reports either. 

So I will continue to keep on blogging.  Maybe one day, they might appear in a book some where, some how.  I am choosing to write, I am choosing to do things that I've been told in the past that I can't do something.  Hey!  Even the best writers in the world still get their work edited!

I can and I will continue to dance, even when my Mum had told me many years ago that I don't look like a dancer and I should stop.

I will continue to teach and inspire women through dance, even when I've been told by others that to be a teacher you need a "diploma" to be seen as a teacher.

I will continue to live!  Even when my Mum and Dad were told 35 years ago that I will not live past 24hrs right after I was born.  I just turned 34 a couple of days ago!  So there medical professionals!

What will you do today that you've been told you can't, or you're not good at ______?

Embrace your power!  You can do it!

Mix it up!

So today I decided to venture out of my apartment to a different coffee shop.  I am still at a Second Cup, but a different one.  I also decided to try a different latte, it's Maple flavour!  Very yummy!! 

That got me thinking.....how often do you change your routine?  Do you go to work/school the same way every day? 

When's the last time you tried something new?  Even if it's just a different kind of tea that you've not had before?  I know if I had not tried the Bengal Spice tea (the one with the tiger on the box) I would not have fallen in love with it.

Same with trying the new style of dance, trying the Burlesque dance was something way new for me.  A totally different style of dance for me.  Growing up learning classical ballet, to burlesque is quite the switch!  If I hadn't started dance with my amazing teacher Di I wouldn't have found my purpose for the world, and not created Awakening Goddess! 

Is it because of fear that others don't try new things?  Possibly, the unknown can be very scary for some.  I know it is for me.  It's like jumping off of a cliff into a river, I don't know how I will land, if I will recover from the jump, and how I will float down the river.  But I take a big deep breath and jump anyway.

Life is like a river or roller coaster.  It has it's ups and downs, or as the river, it has it's fast moving currents, rapids, and also slow flowing parts.  It's all wonderful, it's all apart of life. 

So I want to encourage you to mix it up!  Try something new!  You might really enjoy it, or not.  But if you don't try you won't know if you like something or not.

Find below a video of a song I found on you-tube.  I do not own the video or the music, it's just something I found and wanted to share with you!

Get Radical Woman's Award 2011

I've been a fan of a page on facebook for a little over a year now called Get Radical Women's Conference. I saw the message on their fan page about nominations for the 2011 awards. I decided to nominate myself. Nominations are open to women in Canada as well as the USA. And self nominations are allowed as well. Find below my nomination essay that I just finished writing and submitting to the organization committee.


Yes I work a "9 - 5" job for Metis Calgary Family Services as a Community Animator for Aboriginal Parent Link. However, this is not my true passion in life.

That is why I started the company Awakening Goddess. I have figured out my purpose in life. It is to inspire women to be fully who they are and accept their own wisdom, beauty, grace and power!

I grew up like many girls having many self confidence issues, body issues, and self esteem issues. I was severely bullied by both the boys and girls in my grade school years from grades four to eight. And I am a survivor of an abusive relationship while in University

I as well like many women have dealt with my weight through out my adult life. However it was about 3 years ago when I hit my top clothing size 16/18. I didn't like myself, the way I looked or anything.

I came across the TV show The Biggest Loser and fell in love with the show. I cried along with the participants each week, and could relate to a lot of what they were saying. The trainers on the show were amazing, I love them both, although I am a fellow “Team Jillian” fan.

I decided it was time for me. I’m choosing to eat healthier, and live a more healthier life style. I’m not done my journey but I have so far gone from the size 16/18 to a size 11 (currently while writing this).

While choosing to live healthier, I also took that to look after my mental, emotional, and spiritual bodies as well. I’ve been doing personal growth seminars re learning who I really am, reclaiming my self power and worth. And learning to dream big.

I also stumbled upon an amazing fitness dance class called Burlesquercise. It’s called “sexy fitness” by my dance instructress. Sexify your soul my dance instructress says. To get into my body and move it, learning how to be sensual in my dancing has not been easy. I grew up classically ballet trained for 11 years. So when I first started my dance classes my instructress was showing us what to do, how to move and then touching our own bodies in a sensual way was very hard for me to do.

Now though I love it! Realizing that my purpose is to inspire women to be fully who they are and accept their own wisdom, beauty, grace, and power through sacred body movement brings me such joy! I love seeing the women come to the one on one’s that I do, or mini lessons for a group of girl friends with the uncertainty of what is going to happen, to watch them bloom open to have fun and enjoy moving their bodies.

That’s why I feel I deserve the Radical Woman’s Award for 2011, it’s important I feel for women to be comfortable in their own skin, to fully be who they are and accept their own wisdom, beauty, grace, and power! Thank you for considering me!

It's Official!!

Wow!!! Wow!!! Wow!!! Thank you Universe for making me wealthy! I am proud to announce that Awakening Goddess officially had it's first solo client/student!

I am on cloud nine! I met a beautiful Goddess for an hour. We opened with a heart connection dyad we each asked each other three questions "Tell me a thought in your mind? Tell me a feeling in your body? and Tell me a feeling in your heart?" Then I asked her why was I there? What did she want to get out of the session.

We did some stretching, and then body isolation movements. We took our time and she did amazing. Then we moved into some zoning. Again, we played with the zones and took our time. I showed her one of the performances that I had done at the Sun and Salsa festival back in July "Take Control". She thought it was really great.

To close the evening we did the same dyad, the three questions, her responses were very different to what she had said earlier at the start of the evening.

We only did one hour of a session. We are going to meet again next week! I am super excited!

It's inspiring for me to see the change in even one hour with the Goddess I was working with. I love to inspire others! Hence my purpose of Awakening Goddess! To inspire women to be fully who they are and accept their own wisdom, beauty, grace and power!

It's what I do that I love! I saw a quote that my parents sent me from Hawaii, it is "let what you do, be what you love!" And I love dancing and inspiring others! It brings me such joy! Even I go so far to say outrageous joy! It is my purpose/gift of love/passion for the world! And I'm not going to stop!

Find below three pictures, two of me from the May Burlesque Gala, and one of me and my amazing teacher the sexy Di Lefebvre! Who I owe so much too! So much love and gratitude to you Miss Di!

I am booking my photo shoot very soon, within the next couple of weeks I hope!

Memories from childhood that bring you to smile!

Sitting here in a local coffee shop this morning it is raining. When I was coming into the coffee shop it hadn't started to rain yet. Although I knew it had, by the puddles on the ground, but more importantly there was an aroma in the air that I could tell it had rained during the over night.

The aroma that was in the air took me back to my childhood. I was a flood of memories from when I was in Girl Guides and camping. It was the same aroma that I would smell after it had just rained. I thought about being a girl again, being out in nature camping. Soaking up all that was around me. It was a happy time, to be in nature. I was reminded of being surrounded by trees, the water, and the beauty of Mother Nature.

There are other memories that I have that are only brought on by specific aroma's. For example when I am visiting my family back home in Ontario, sometimes Mum will make porridge on the stove. The aroma of the oats cooking on the stove remind me from when I was little, and she would do the same thing.

Or perhaps it's a memory from something you see? When I see little girls playing/exploring out in a park, in nature, it reminds me when I was a little girl, being out in nature in a forest with my father. We would go and collect fire wood for our wood burning stove that we had. I would spend more time exploring the tree's looking for places where fairy's live or woodland creatures like squirls or chipmunks. I would help my Dad yes, but I was more concerned about finding houses for the animals and fairy's.

Another happy memory that is sprung from seeing others is again when I see little girls dancing/twirling in space. I am reminded of when I took ballet lessons as a young girl. I had so much fun dancing wearing the pretty costumes that had all the sparkles.

And now I am dancing still, but instead of sparkles and sequins, I have feathers! It is such a rewarding experience to be dancing again. I have women come up to me after they see me dance, and ask how do I do it? There are many women who see me dance who want to dance like myself and the others in my dance troop but are either to afraid to do so, or don't think they can dance. Goddesses! Let me tell you a little secret....if you can walk, you can dance! Just move your body to the music, feel the music in your heart, and let your body move to it!

Growth

Wow!!!! What a week I've had!!! So much great things have been appearing in my life! I am over come with emotion of gratitude, love, and passion! So much growth is happening in all areas of my life, and I'm riding the roller coaster of life, and not letting go!

On Monday I found out that I was to start my new job. I was training Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. Today (Friday) I was back at the day care one last time. I miss the kids, but this will be a great step in my growth in the working realm of my life.

I loving my new job, it's going to be so great to be supporting families going through a struggle.

I'm also feeling lots of gratitude for the opportunity to be dancing this coming Sunday at the Sun and Salsa Festival here in my home town. I'll be dancing two numbers with fellow members of the Sizzle Girls. One dance has just five of us, and the other has 13 of us. It's been on my vision board to perform with the Sizzle Girls, yes, but the next step was to perform at a festival. And that's going to be happening! And I can't wait!

With Awakening Goddess, I've had positive responses from women who've I spoken with. I am so grateful and proud all at the same time to let you all know that I've been invited to speak/inspire/dance at an event here in my home town for women only. It's called "Heart Open to the Max" Ladies night on Aug. 5. To be in a room full of women, inspiring them to live their life to be fully who they are and accept their own wisdom, beauty, grace, and power will be an amazing experience for me.

I am excited for this opportunity. There are so many people to thank along this journey. My dance teacher Di especially for teaching me everything I know about Burlesque dancing. My spiritual teachers Suzanne, Satyen, and the entire Sr. Staff team of WarriorSage for teaching me about living my passion, and how to figure out what my passion is. My parents who wish for me to be happy. Well you know what Mum and Dad? I AM happy. I am truly happy when I'm living my passion. To be dancing and inspiring other women to dance in this ride called life.

Where are you growing in your life? Where are you stuck and need a push? To grow is to have courage to step out of your comfort zone and live the way you want to live!

Find below a beautiful mini movie that I found on you-tube. It's all about growth and living! Very powerful!

Move that body!

So I've been back to dance class last night. We had the week off last week. Only one week off, and my body was hurting! It's a great reminder to keep moving my body! When I love my body, I feel so much better. Yes I was sore, today and last night, but I feel great.

It was so much fun to move my body with the other ladies in the Sizzle Girls. It was fun, the new Sizzle Girls were fun to be with and meet. There's lots of practice needing to be done, as we are performing on the 30th of May at the Lilac Festival here in Calgary.

I want to encourage you to move your body, be active and do something you love. If you love to dance, Dance! If you love to box, Box! What ever it is....do it!

Do something that you like, as women we are born to move, we are the light, the life force of the world.

For fun, see below a video I found on you-tube. I don't own it, or the music.

You are Free!! What Wants to Happen?

So this weekend I have been busy staffing a course called Living From Truth. The seminar topic this time was all about Freedom.

One of the questions we worked on was You are free, what wants to happen? This was a fun question to work on....think, you are free, what wants to happen?

I want lots to happen...I want to keep living life! I want to keep dancing! I want a log cabin to live in! I want a new car!

It's like having the universe at your finger tips, like a huge cateloge of the world, of things, excurisions, experiences, places, people, EVERYTHING!!!

I am a powerful creator! I create magic in everything that I do!

Find below another version of the Sizzle Girls Italiano Samba. Lots of fun was had that night! Watch for us coming again soon! We are performing at the Lilac Festvial twice on May 30.

Italiano Samba

So without further adu, I would like to present one version of the Sizzle Girl's Samba routine that we performed on Friday May 7th.

As you can see from the ladies that I dance with, we are of all different ages, as well as sizes/shapes. Any woman who can move her feet can dance. Don't let anyone tell you differently, or your little "editor" or as my life coach calls it the "saboteur" inside your head.

Flurry of Feathers!

Wow!!!! What a night!!!! The Brazilian Burlesque Gala was a huge hit! Myself and the other women who were there dancing strutted our stuff, and feathers were sure flying!

Myself and the other Sizzle Girls did an amazing job. It was fun peforming for others, inspiring women that it doesn't matter what you look like or how young/old you are you can still get up and peform infront of others.

We also did boudoir photo's as a group and then individually. I can't wait to see how they turned out. Lots of us were taking pictures that night. It was fun to pose for the camera with the lights and the sets.

However in the mean time, I created a mini video picture slide show of the night, of pictures that myself and a couple other Sizzle Girls took. The music you hear is what we danced too on Friday night.

Watch out for more from the Calgary Sizzle Girls! We're peforming at the Lilac Festival and the Sun and Salsa Festival here in Calgary.

Even in the midst of craziness!

Okay so this week I have been on cloud nine every day. Yes work is crazy with all the kids, but I have so much joy in my life right now that's its bubbling over at times!

I'm again sitting in a cafe in the city, people around me seem for the most part peaceful. Perhaps it's because it's Friday, or perhaps because the sun is really trying to come out today....

I was sent this quote today from a dear friend:

No-Thought for the Day : "The dance need not wait for tomorrow--tomorrow never comes--the dance has to be now, here, this very moment!" OSHO

And it fits so perfectly with the plans of the day for me. Tonight is the Brazilian Burlesque Gala! The dance is today....dance through life! I had a coaching session the other day and my coach asked me "Tell me Who You Are?" I sat with that question for a moment or two, and the image that kept coming up again and again was the song Dancing Queen, by ABBA.

Tomorrow never comes....we need to be in the NOW, and do things every day that make us each dance. And it's the small steps/goals that we need to concentrate on. If we only dwell on the huge goals, they may seem very far away and unattainable!

But I had the realization while with my life coach that my small goals are really happening, that I am taking all the right small steps to really living my gift of love for the world. To be able to take part in this roller coaster ride called life and really ride the ride, is a thrilling experience. There are ups and downs twists and turns, calm straight spots, but then it could climb high again! And there is a definite start and a definite stop.

I am a powerful creator in this Universe. My message from the Universe today was:

"Have you noticed, Aime, how moving towards a great dream summons from life's jungles the fiercest lions, the scariest tigers, and the grizzliest bears... who eventually turn out to be the noblest teachers, the bravest guides, and the dearest friends?

You're on your way,
The Universe"