deep feminine practice

Okay, so I've not written in a long while, but life keeps turning and turning.....and I am learning and practicing to surrender.  Much has happened since I last wrote.

I attended a Groovy Goddess Sleep Over Weekend at the start of Nov.  What an interesting weekend that was.  Letting myself be held and physically loved by my Goddess Sisters was a very healing experience for me.  Cried my eyes out that weekend, but it was a cleansing cry that took place.

Also attended Get It On this past weekend, a course offered by the Get A Life Organization.  Again I was practicing surrendering to the feminine and masculine.  As a single/available woman I was asked to make a list of the qualities that I'm looking for in my man that I am attracting into my life.  That part was easy.  Then we were asked to make a list of the reciprocal of that of wish we want to attract.  So a few things that I put on my list were I want my man to have strength, (and I don't just mean physical strength, but also emotional, and mental as well), have direction, have purpose.  So what do I have to do/be in order to attract that into my life?  I came up with surrender and trust!  The two other women that I was working with in creating our lists also suggested that I need to ask for help and receive it as well.

Very interesting......I ask for help at work when I don't understand something.  But I don't very often ask for help when not at work.  It takes a lot of courage for me to do so.  I expressed that to a few others a couple of days ago.   A Goddess who was listening on the phone call said that I can call her.  It was wonderful to hear that from her. 

Another thing we spoke about on the phone was what we as Goddesses can do to drop into our feminine more.  We agreed to get up and dance for about 10min each morning, to music that doesn't have words.  It'll be a good practice to get into my body each morning and move it.

Tonight I came home from work, and had a hot wonderful shower by candle light, I also lit many other candles around my living room, have been listening to calming music tonight as I sit and get creative!  I also indulged in some chocolate mint tea, and some chocolates made by Lindt!  Very tasty!!

So Sister, I invite and encourage you to do something to bring out your feminine each day.  Be gentle with yourself if you don't.  Just take it one step at a time!

An afternoon by the river

So the other day on the weekend I spent a good portion of my time outside of the city sitting by the river out towards Canmore. Find below all my ramblings. Included in it are tarot/oracle readings and a poem that I wrote. Enjoy! When was the last time you spent 5hrs sitting alone in silence (for the most part) on Mother Earth??

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I've come back to the same spot off the #1A Highway. It is very windy this afternoon. The ancestors must be busy or are glad that I am back. I'm at peace sitting out here on Mother Earth. I see all the swallows dive close to the river and it reminds me of being at Camp Adelaide my "home" Girl Guide Camp back in Ontario. It was always calming/peaceful to watch them swoop along the lake before all the kids would come in the morning.

There is one swallow that keeps on calling to me, she's along the shore line right now and pecking at the water. (As I sit here now blogging this post, I looked up the meaning of the swallow bird, it means coming home)

My intention is to stay out here over night. I did bring my sleeping bag and food. So we shall see. I have some oracle cards and stones with me as well.

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Goddess Oracle Cards = I shuffled the deck and four fell out. I read it as the four body systems. Find below my readings

Spiritual Body = Maya (illusion)
Mental Body = Rhiannon (doubt)
Emotional Body = Morgan Le Fay (rhythms)
Physical Body = Nu Kua (order)

Goddess Amulets (stones) = Temple (Breakthrough, Awakening, Healing) I found this stone very interesting. I loved the reading from it. It talked about healing myself my physical health, to take time to get back to nature go for massages, go inward, to go into my body, to not do anything crazy physical activity/workout. I feel very drawn to the amulet right now. As I sit here and write this blog. It's like going through the doorway to being me, to living my dreams.

The Wisdom of Avalon Oracle Cards = 36 = Sacred Journey Markers = Movement = Change for the better.

Osho Zen Tarot = Queen of Clouds = Morality

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I went in the river. She was cold. I went in eventually up to my mid calves's. Glad I brought my Teva's. Had them on in the river.

I asked Mother Gaea to cleanse me, to take all the sickness away. I could feel the current against my legs. I could feel her against my skin. Her cool water healing me.

I did the yoga pose called "The Goddess" while in the water. I spoke aloud the 21st Century Goddess Mantra. I kept my eyes open when I did this. I actually struggled to do so. Felling like I was vulnerable in staying in that position. But I stayed with it. Find below a poem I wrote:

Yemaya I surrender to you.
Yemaya I surrender to your flow.
I let the waters heal me.
Yemaya wash away my pain.

Yemaya Mother ocean I come to you.
I enter your watery womb
with compassion and seeking renewal.
Yemaya I surrender to you.

Yemaya Mother ocean you are powerful.
Yemaya Mother Ocean you created your Sister Gaea.
Both of you have created me.

Yemaya I surrender to you.
Yemaya I surrender to your flow.
I let your waters heal me,
and birth me anew.

2015hrs

Still here sitting on Mother Goddess Earth. I feel very connected to spirit as the sun has been traveling across the sky today. However the thunder clouds are gathering in the West. I feel it's time for me to journey back to the city very soon. As well as another couple has found me out and I'm no longer alone. He is fishing, and she I'm guessing will be assisting him.

I have really enjoyed my afternoon/evening out here. I must do this again soon. Maybe there's another magic spot along the highway that I can sit on Mother Earth again by the river too.