RANGO's teachings

On Friday night, I took myself out for a movie date.  I went and saw the movie RANGO, a kids movie with Johny Depp as the main character/voice.  It had a great story with an even better message.

The message is:  Don't Walk Out Of Your Own STORY!  You are the creator of your own story.  If you walk out of it, then what will happen?  And who you are in your story is important as well.  You Sister are the Heroine!  You are the creator!  You are POWERFUL!!!

I know for me in my life there has been a couple of times where I wanted to walk out of my own story even with out knowing it fully.  I can remember something my Dad told me about when I was first born, the nurses at the NICU had to remind me to keep breathing.  I would stop breathing because my lungs weren't fully developed.  But there was something in me that was stronger.  The doctors told my parents that I would always be small and petite.  Hah!  Were they wrong!  That's like saying that your daughter will not amount to much, and not live her life.  And the doctors thought that about me, I was baptized and not expected to live past 24hrs.

As I grew into adulthood life threw me different curve balls where I could have easily walked away from creating my story.  Being in the hospital 7 years ago with having to under go emergency surgery to remove a cyst the size of a large grapefruit was a very low time in my life.  At one point I thought of walking out of my story (going into a shell/depression and not fully living).  With love and support from family and friends I didn't.  I learned how to ask for help during my recovery.

Now seven years later, it almost feels like a re birthing of sorts for me.  I've had many shifts take place since January.  I've been taking amazing steps to keep going forward in life.  To live my life.  I am creating my own story as the heroine, the creator, the one who says what is so.  It's a thrilling experience, meaning it's scary good! 

I don't really care what others think of me either, I have some critics/negative people who've told me it can't be done.  Or others have said stop you are shining too bright, it's too much.  I know what I am doing on this earth is a good thing, it's needed in the world.  Many women that I've come in contact with and all over the world are not living their Awakened Goddess selves. 

Women connecting with their Awakened Goddess selves, connecting with heart with other women.  Getting into their bodies and moving them in sacred body movement.  It's a healing experience to move our bodies, even if it's a slight bounce/sway to a good piece of music that you love!  I know I've been dancing to some music and all of a sudden the tears will just start to flow, it's a healing it's a release for me.  Showing up moment to moment.

Find below a piece of music with amazing words that I love, it's by Natasha Bedingfield called "Unwritten", about how your life is not written yet, you have the control to do so!





So remember, don't walk out of your own story!  You are the heroine in your own story.  It has yet to be created!!!

Do you believe in Miracles?




The master dream maker!!

 
Wow!  What a roller coaster of emotions this week has been!  Started off with taking part in a seminar all about building authentic relationships.  Where I got to re-meet some amazing women who are all brilliant and radiant!  The group was lead by my dear Goddess Sister friend Lee.  She rocked! 

My physical pain had been non existent for about 7 days, and it came back on Monday, and hasn't left.  I had a skype session with one of my mentors this morning and it really helped.  Getting in touch with my pain in my body and letting myself feel, dream, and connect.  Still have the physical pain, I also seem clearer on my direction and goals.

I've been listening over and over again to my "inspirational" play list on my I-Tunes.  It really helps me keep believing in my passion and purpose.  Right now in this moment is KT Tunsel "Suddenly I see".  A great song!




Toward the end of the week, Lee posted something on her facebook page about a friend of hers.  This friend is a dear soul, a brilliant woman, who is living with a terminal illness.  It is this friend's dying wish to have Michael Buble sing to her in person or via video/skype.  She launched a huge social media push to have Michael sing to honour this wish.  I was apart of the push of love to make it happen.  I posted on facebook and twitter like crazy as much as I could.  To the point where my biological Sister said it was a little over whelming.  If a dear friend says to you that she has a friend who is dying of a terminal illness and has a last wish, will you help make it happen any way you can?  Even if others tell you you are doing to much, or to slow down, or it's over whelming?  I am so happy to announce that in less than 24hrs Michael heard our wish, and sent a video from Hong Kong to her.  I do believe that miracles do come true.  That dreams do come true. 




So many emotions come over me when I think of what took place.  Believe in dreams, believe in miracles, asking for help, asking for what you want.

I've always believed in dreams and miracles.  I sit here today as a miracle child.  Born 3 months early, weighing in at 1 pound 12 ounces, not expected to live 24hrs.  I am here today at 34 years of age living!



Asking for help, for what I want, is still something I continue to work on.  It could be as easy as asking someone for help to clean up a water leak mess in my apartment.  I struggled asking my room mate to help me clean up the mess!  Or it can be big like asking for help after being in the hospital for emergency surgery, where I couldn't do my own grocery shopping or even drive places on my own.  I had to ask for help for everything.

So Goddess, I ask you, do you believe in miracles?  Do you remember to ask for help?

Acts of Kindness

I had an interesting day yesterday, was attending an all day seminar/workshop with all of my co-workers.  It was about culture and spirituality.  How we fit it into our working environment.  I work for an organization here in Calgary that is all first nations/metis staff.  I am one of the only white people working for the organization.

So for most of the day I sat and was an observer, didn't speak hardly at all.  The first thing we did was a pipe ceremony, I've never participated in a pipe ceremony before.  It was wonderful to be a part of it.  Women sititng on one side in long skirts, men on the other.  There were four people sitting at the front of the circle at an alter made of blankets and other special symbols.  Each person at the front of the circle did their own cleansing/smudging of their pipe.  Prayers were said and then the pipes were all passed around, if you didn't chose to smoke that was okay, we were to just put the lips of the pipe to our sides of our body, our heart and the other side of our chest.  It was a wonderful experience to be apart of.

I learned about the history of the organization and then we all after lunch had the opportunity to speak about different things related to the culture and spirituality of our different groups.  I heard things like do I belong, am I native enough from others.  I really started to doubt myself working for the organization.  I thought maybe I didn't belong because I'm not native, I have lots to learn about the culture and spirituality.

When I did choose to speak I only spoke the positve part that I was thinking.  Because I also heard things like being kind.  I spoke about that.  Starting in the Parent Link centre where I am now back in August has been an adjustment.  My co-workers I acknowledged in my speaking and said that they have been so kind and accepting of me, even with all my quirks.  I thanked everyone for allowing me to be there, to participate in the ceremony earlier in the morning.  Being non native I feel very honoured and blessed to be working with such a great organization.

When I got home yesterday, I took myself out for supper.  I had a gift certificate that I was gifted with from an event about a week ago.  When there, I enjoyed my meal, and observing the others around me.  I saw a table of six, two parents and four children.  I called the server over and said that I wanted to put a $20 payment on their bill.  The server figured it out and said sure.  When he went to the table of six and gave them their bill, he told them that $20 had been taken off  by me.  They all stared at me and the husband even stood up and looked at me.  The husband came over and asked if we knew each other.  I said no we don't.  I explained the "pay it forward" or "random acts of kindness" to him.  He went back to his table and explained it to his family.

On the way out, the family all came by and said thank you.  I recieved their thank you, and just asked each one of them to pay it forward.  Encouraging them to do it for someone they don't know.  It was a wonderful experience to witness. 

So Sister, I encourage you, do a random act of kindness for someone you see this weekend.  It might just change the course of their life!

Find  below a video about kindness.  I found it on you-tube!

Making Choices

I've not written in a while, I've been focusing on my health and looking after some health concerns.  Tonight I'm watching The Biggest Loser.  I love the show, the people on the show are so real, they don't hide anything. 

I've been on a long journey of doing my best to live healthier.  I recently stepped on a scale a few weeks ago, and was upset when I saw what the number was.  I have to keep reminding myself that it's just a number.  I've put on 20 pounds, kinda like starting back at the beginning.

Then I started thinking, feeling, and listening to my heart.  Over the past few months I've been really happy.  I've been happy in my heart, emotionally and mentally.  I've been having so many good days, I've been open to all the doors of opportunities that have come my way for my business Awakening Goddess.  There are so many wonderful women to thank.  Everyone is so special to me, I have chosen to honour a small handful here.  In no particular order because they are all #1 in my mind.  The amazing Miss Lee from SimpLee Serene the spunky Miss Jo from e-women, my insultant Goddess Miss Lynne from HandlerInc, my "Amazon Queen" Miss Karen the Enlightened Love Coach, the lively Miss Jenn from systems-girl, the sparkly Miss Colette from Soulmate Relationships, and the sassy Miss Sandra from Calgary Goddesses.  Each of these above women have been there for me, helped me so much, showed me many doors of opportunities that I've opened and stepped  through them all.

I am choosing to be happy, choosing to live my life.  I believe that when the heart is emotionally happy and the brain is mentally happy that the body will follow.  I know I'll keep going on my physical happiness, it's a process, just like the other two, sometimes there are bumps in the road to over come. 

I know I'll get over the  bumps in the road with believing in myself, and continue to love myself.  Life is a roller coaster, twists and turns, mountains to climb, and lots to scream and be outrageously joyful about!

I ask you Sister, what are you choosing today?  You have the power to choose, which path are you choosing?  Life might not always be easy, but with love and support from others as well as believing in yourself you will get through!

Death and Rebirth

This morning my card that flipped out for me was the wonderful Celtic Goddess Cerridwen.  She is the Goddess of death and rebirth.  She is speaking about your life as cycles, that some things are dying or becoming complete and other things are re birthing!

She talks about having each one of us in her cauldron spinning us around, cleaning and transforming us, then bringing us out of her cauldron re birthed and ready to go again!

Wow!  So amazing!  Cycles ending....not dancing with my teacher any more, and re birthing.....Awakening Goddess out in full for all to see!  Pretty amazing! 

I know when I put on the "costume" for a dance show, it in the beginning felt like just that, a costume.  Now though, I see it as a part of me.  I am that Goddess who can be sexy, sultry, and dance in a way that teases men in a sexual nature.  I can bring out that dark energy Goddess when I choose too.  And it's a pretty powerful thing!

Starting Awakening Goddess is like a re birthing for me, it's a breath of fresh air, and I am excited by it too!

Where in your life are there things finishing and then re birthing?? 

Find below a video from you-tube that I found.  It's a chant to the Goddess Cerridwen and Hecate.  I really like this video!

Mystery and Illusion

This morning the two Goddess Oracle cards that flipped over in my hands were Nut and Maya.  Two interesting Goddesses.

First Maya, she is the Goddess of Illusion, my own illusion.  She talks about lifting the veils of the illusion.  It was interesting today I was working today at the day care.  I was working with the toddlers (1.5yr olds to almost 3 year olds).  They have no veils around them, I saw that today, they are just in awe of everything around them.  They really have no fear of anything.  It brought me to tears at one point.  They were just raw, fully present being them.

Started thinking of myself.  how often do I hide behind the illusion or the veils?  Not as often these days.  I pretty much show my emotion and express my emotion on my sleeve.  You will know when I'm upset, or happy.  It's taken a lot of tears, growth to remove the veils.  I show up as I am, I'm not as afraid any more.  I know I've lost friends because of it, and I may loose more who knows.  I have also noticed that I have been attracting to me some amazing connections with others who are willing to stand with me, see me, and accept me for who I am and how I show up in each moment.  The connections I've made over the past month has been amazing, I've been showing up. 

As I commented on a friend's status today, I do my best to show up as an Awakened Goddess living what the motto is of my business embracing and accepting my own wisdom, beauty, grace, and power. 

Here is the picture of Maya from the Goddess Oracle book by Amy Sophia M.  She is also seen as the maiden Goddess of the amazing triple Goddess Kali.  That is why she looks child like.

As I said the other to flip over this morning was Nut, the Goddess of Mystery.  Nut is the night sky, stretching over head.  She is the great Universe, the unknown.  She says to trust the mystery, the Universe.  I am really starting to do this, trusting the Universe and letting go of my wanting to know everything that is going on. 

As I have said before, once I relaxed a bit about not being able to dance with my teacher's company things started opening up for me.  I trusted the process and the mystery of the Universe.  I remain open to all the possibilities.

With these two Goddesses with me today, it was wonderful.  How often do you uncover the veils of you to bring the real you out?  And trust the Mystery all at the same time?  I bet lots!!


This is a mini video about Nut, the Goddess of the Mystery.  I found it on you-tube.

Victim

This morning, I pulled a Goddess card.  I was shocked when I saw who flipped over in my hand.  It was Sedna, she's an Inuit Goddess of the Oceans.  She also represents "victim".  This is why I was shocked when she flipped over.

I've been working crazy hard to drop all thoughts of "victim" mode.  However the reason why she flipped over came true at work today.

I am working tomorrow at the day care.  My old boss phoned to double check that I knew.  I said yes, she was trying to hand up the phone when I asked on the time a 8hr day or a 9hr day?  Normally I would have just said okay yes.  Then later on in the day my now supervisor was asking on who was doing child care for different classes that we offer.  I said I was.  I sat with that for a moment, then sent a memo to my supervisor.  I stood up for myself and spoke my truth.  I told her that I for the rest of the year will not be able to work 2 nights per month late in any situation.  I don't have kids who have commitments, this is for me, my commitments to myself and growing Awakening Goddess.  Making connections with other amazing people.

It felt so good stepping into my self power and speaking my truth at work.

Find below a video I found on You-Tube about the Goddess Sedna.



When was the last time you spoke your truth in a difficult situation, where normally you wouldn't have?  Step out of victim and into power!  I am powerful!  You are powerful!