4:30am!?!? POWER

Okay, so I awake at 4:30am this morning and can't seem to get back to bed......so I'd thought I would come and sit here at my computer and do a blog post.  Typing on feelings of what ever is coming up in the moment.

This past weekend I've done a lot of reflecting on what is, and what isn't.  The word power has been coming up lots.  Specifically the word self power.  I came to the realization a few days ago now, that this self power that I have is within me, and I'm afraid of it. 

I shouldn't be afraid of it though, I should embrace it and let it move in me and through me.  It's my gift to share with the world.  I can remember a few years ago now roughly summer of 2007, being in a workshop all about finding your personal power.  I was involved in one of the daily activities that was quite physical using martial arts as a metaphor for life.  One of the staff in the event came over to me from across the large room where we were doing some "bag" work with partners.  He said to me that he could feel my intensity/power from across the room and had to come over to see who it was.  He was so surprised that it was me.

Two quotes that I saw/heard this weekend are all about personal power.  One is from my dear Goddess Sister Lee from http://www.simpleeserene.com/  She posted:  "And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than  the risk it took to blossom. - Anats Nin"  And the other that I heard on the great movie The Secret "There's a power in me, that is greater than the world itself."

When I read the fist quote, I cried.  Some friends of mine have suggested that perhaps the reason for my health issues right now are because they are emotional.  That I'm holding onto something too tight.  I do feel myself blossoming open, to my full ME.  It's a scary/good feeling.  Really showing up to being me, to shining my light for the world.  I need to relax and and be open to all the possibilities.  Stand in my power and showing up to my own party.  For life is one big party.   Taking risks, asking for help even for me is a risk, reaching out to others and letting others in to help me is something I continue to work on daily!

I also am going to do things that help lower my stress in my life.  By being in the company of others, making in person connections with friends.  Dancing just for the sake of dancing around in my living room.  Also arranging once a month for an energy body treatment from another dear Goddess Sister Nadine.  She is an amazing Goddess who works her magic on my body with massage and reiki.

The second quote from the movie "The Secret" spoke to my heart again.  I watch the movie a few times a year, and every time I get something different out of it.  This time it was all about personal power.  I am feeling this power and grounding the energy all at the same time.

Find below a beautiful video/song by Jana Stanfield.  It's called If I Were Brave.  Two of my dear friends, Goddess Sisters are in this video.  They are brave!



I just shuffled my Goddess Oracle deck, and guess who flipped over?  Lilith!  She's the Goddess of Power!  Wow!  I love this Goddess, she was the first wife of Adam, and didn't want to eat the forbidden fruit to be controlled by Adam, so she fled. 

Find below a video slide show all about this amazing Goddess!



So in closing, I ask you Sister, will you stand in your own power?  Let others help you?  And be YOU!

Selfhood and Compassion

Artemis Goddess of Selfhood

This morning during a week day, I sit at a coffee shop getting an opportunity to do some blogging.  I wish I could do this every morning, get up on my own time, head to a local coffee shop get a tea and do some blogging each morning. 

There has been so much going on in the world.  With the Great Mother being uneasy in the region of Japan being the latest unrest of the Great Mother.  I turned to my Goddess Oracle deck this morning for some comfort in what can I do.  Here's who flipped over in my pile today.  Artemis and Kuan Yin.  Interesting, very interesting.  Artemis has always been a favourite Goddess of mine, she's all about being free, living her passion(s), caring for the animals and forests.  First let me reflect more on Artemis......

In Amy Sophia M's book on page 26 from The Goddess Oracle is a poem:

I am who I am
and I know who I am
I can take care of myself
under all circumstances
and I can let others care for me
I can choose
There is no authority
higher than my own
my powers of discernment are finely honed
I am autonomous
I am free from the influence
of other's opinions
I am able to separate
that which needs separation
so a clear decision
can  be reached
I think for myself
I set my sights
and aim my bow
my arrows always find their mark.

It's interesting, selfhood, Artemis also speaks to me about giving time to me.  Asking me if I've been giving so much to others that I forget about myself.  Which is true.  I believe that part of the reason for me getting ill on Sunday/Monday is that I have been giving so much to others, that I forgot about myself.  Yesterday I slept almost the entire day away.

She also speaks to me about her arrow, and firing arrows to dreams.  I wrote about this already, it's huge though, I saw the power of love and dreams coming true for a friend of mine.  She didn't give up, and neither did we, making this wish/dream come true for a friend of a friend.  To live my passion, my dream for the world I know I'm doing the right thing.  My friend Lee wrote on her facebook status page this morning about what is your wish?  I was unable to answer her when I first saw her message. 

Now though, I'm starting to dream big again.  One dream of mine is to travel to all 3 points of this beautiful country of mine.  I'm close, I've been to Vancouver (need to get to Victoria, and Tofino), Peggy's Cove in Nova Scotia (need to get to St. John's NFLD), the one up north is the tricky one I wish to get to Tuk-tu-uk-tuk in the N.W.T.

Another to travel to the Goddess Sacred sites of England and Ireland, to where the Lady of the Lake once lived.  To visit where the fairy's live, and dance in the magic of it all!

Other dreams I have are to meet specific people in person Sierra Bender (an awesome Goddess who wrote a book called Goddess To The Core), Wayne Dyer, Doreen Virtue, Oprah, Dr. Phil, Jillian Michaels.

I have business goals/dreams to for Awakening Goddess as well.  To have more days like today, to sit in a coffee shop and blog, write, connect via social media with others.  To be able to have enough income from Awakening Goddess to have my 2 bedroom apartment to myself again, to be able to cut down my 9 - 5 job and work part time 3 days a week no evenings.   To be in front of  large groups of women sharing my story, inspiring other women that they do have power, they are sensual. 

It's funny as I sit here just finishing writing this paragraph, I'm buzzing with energy, almost on the verge of  tears. All these dreams will come true, I believe it is so!

What are your big dreams?  Let your imagination go, and dream big!

Kuan Yin, Goddess of Compassion

Kuan Yin....similar to Artemis in a way is all about compassion.  Reminding me to have compassion for self, is what I am taking away from this reading.  I have plenty of compassion for other giving so much to others, that I forget to give to myself, to show compassion to myself.

Kuan Yin is a powerful Goddess from the East, she is seen as the "Mother Mary" in the catholic traditions from the West.  Many call to her for compassion for the world.  And frankly I think it's needed right now, with the unrest of the Great Mother in Kuan Yin's home land.

The Great Mother is shaking things up, she wants us to wake up!  She wants us to show up and live. 

Will you do that Sister?  Will you wake up with me, and show up to live?!?